everyonce and a while
i see you look at me like you used to.

And at some point I'll call you and tell you I miss you
And you are the point of my days
And my face will get flushed and my throat will choke up
When you tell me that you feel the same

I forgot; you're the guy who loves
to rip the rug out from under me just when
I feel like we're given some sort of stable ground.
+ One Tree Hill

Don't ignore me; don't act like we're strangers.
I know you love her now & you know I hate her,
but don't pretend the love we had wasn't real.
That hurts; that wasn't part of the deal.
We're not together anymore, but we are in my heart.
When you look at me like everyone else,
it completely tears me apart.

I still wish you would call. Not to go do
anything, just to talk. I miss hearing your voice
every night. I guess I just miss you making me smile.

Do you remember that night when I told you
exactly how I felt? Remember how I said that
Id be lost without you and never find myself?
Well, now you're gone and Im still looking
for the missing parts of me.

if we never talk again
i just want you to know that the
days i spent with you
were the best days of my life

i knew at first glance that you
were gonna be hard to forget*

I should have known that we'd never get anywhere. You can't fall in love when you're falling apart

I loved you, it's not that I fell out of love with you, because that would be impossible. I just couldn't handle the heartache anymore. It's not that I don't love you; it's that I can't.

It hurts so bad to see you with her.

Congratulations kid,
you got to her.

On the phone a year later, he asked her if she missed him.
Her reply was,
"I don't miss you, I miss the guy who called me every second he could... who sat home on Saturday nights thinking of me when we couldn't be together.. the guy who came to my house after every fight, the guy who told me I looked like a star, the guy who wasn't just the love of my life but my best friend.
That's the guy I miss. How could I miss you?
I don't even know you

I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it. And when you dream, I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it. I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe without me.

You make me nervous ;
I guess that makes you different from all the rest.

There comes a point where you miss someone so much that youcan hear their voice echo in your head, and you can hear the names that theyused to call you, the words they used to tell you. You memorized their laugh,their smile, and their silly ways. You can also feel their arms around you andyou don't want to let go even though you know it's just an illusion. Every timeyour phone rings, you smile because it's them that’s calling. Every time youhear their name, your heart beats 100 times faster and sometimes, you can'teven breathe. You knew that looking back on the tears would make you laugh, butyou never knew that looking back on the laughs would also make you cry. All youwant is to go back in time. Not to the time that you first met, but to the timethat you were known as nothing, but strangers. But no matter what,you're in denial. You hide your feeling so no one would know. You put on a fakesmile and don't let a single tear break through. You’re so used to hiding yourfeelings that you don't even realize the pain you're causing for yourself. Yourthoughts become invisible. It’s still there, but no one knows, like a loveletter you didn't show.

It's hard to watch people change right in front of you.
But the worst part is remembering who they used to be.

Even if you think the flame has died,
there's at least one lyric that'll hit that last hot spot,
and then you'll find yourself as fucked
as you were the day you lied and
said you never wanted to see him again.

And I know you're not sorry, but I forgive you.

I think I'd miss you even if we'd never met.
So how am I supposed to deal with this?

And when he sees her, he holds his breath and
walks by without breathing. And when he walks by,
he stares determinedly in the other direction,
in order not to look at her because
if he does, he'll stare forever.

"She glared at him, feeling the old frustration. Sometimes in his presence she felt the deepest connection to him, and other times she felt completely alone-as though any bond to him was her own bitter imagination."

I laugh everytime I start to think about him,
we set that summer out in style.
Well, he`s gone, but he left me with a smile
- cause he was mine for a while –


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a part of him will always
be in her smile.

i remember the first time that i really looked you in the eyes.
i was thinking to myself, there'll never be anyone else

behind every untrusting girl is a
boy who taught her to be that way.

And you can tell
By the red in my eyes
And the bruises on my thighs
And the knots in my hair
And the bathtub full of flies
That I'm not right now at all
Don't call the doctors
Cause they've seen it all before
They'll say just
Let Her Crash And Burn
She'll learn

Just promise me you'll wear that purple dress you have
You look so cute when you're confused
You backed away and asked me how I knew about that.

youre begging me to stay
but then you hurt me so bad
do i stand in your way
or am i the best thing you had

I've been driving for an hour,
just talking to the rain.
You say I've been driving you crazy
and it's keeping you away.
So just give me one good reason,
tell me why I should stay.
'Cause I don't wanna waste
another moment  saying things
we never meant to say.

&& she can't get the one she wants
so she settles for all the rest

& that boy means more to me
then the stars do to the sky

But here's a thanks for a summer
that I'll always remember.
--» Hellogoodbye «--

She landed smack in the middle
of your world & turned everything
upside down until you were addicted
to her smile, her voice filled your dreams,
and everything that didn't make sense
before, was all of a sudden perfect

we were all in love
& we all got hurt.

but that summer had a way of
making her smile, making her
happier. it was sort of amazing
how for those three months,
she always believed in herself
and all that she could be.

show me,
show me,
show me.
How you do that one trick.
The one that makes me scream,
she said.
The one that makes me laugh,
she said.
& she threw her arms around his neck.
show me how you do it.
& i promise you,
i promise that,
i'll run away with you.

the biggest mistake you can make
is to drift apart from someone
who you once had the time of your life with.

Just don't change yourself for anyone
because that thing that you changed
may be the one thing that someone
fell in love with.

boy: why don't you ever take risks?
girl: i take risks!
boy: when's the last time you took a risk?
girl: five minutes ago!!!
boy: what?
girl: when i said hello to you.

he sat there watching her.
her dark long hair, a smile like an angel.
he couldn't get her out of his mind.
all he wanted was her, only her.
he smiled pretending to be happy,
but he was breaking inside.

she sat there watching him.
his eyes shining, his bright smile.
she couldn't get him out of her head.
all she wanted was to be with him.
she smiled pretending to be happy.
but inside her heart was breaking.


the way you fit in my arms at night;
i'll remember that feeling the rest of my life.

I'm standing in front of you,
Looking you in the eyes,
and for the first time in my life,
I'm not afraid to let you go.

You walked away from the one person
who never left your side

you know it's changing & it's breaking your heart.
there's nothing you can do except watch it&fall apart

it's hard, it's harder than it's ever been before.
things that used to comfort me don't comfort me anymore



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i want to be free of you.
the way you, obviously,
are free of me.

When people walk away from you, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

he's not the captain of the football team,
his guitar skills kind of suck,
he's not the hottest guy around,
but he's exactly what i want.

there's always going to be those
awkward moments when we're
around eachother and remember
how things used to be

he saved me, in every way that
a person can be saved.
--titanic

And if I had to sum up this past year;
I wasted months of it trying to impress
you. I wasted hours of days just talking
to you on the phone. And what did it
get me? A broken heart, a very quiet
cell phone, piles of clothes I'll never
wear again, and drawers full of many
types of make up. It wasn't worth it.
You weren't worth my time.

There comes a certain point when you have to fight back

we almost laughed harder than we kissed,
you were always something i couldnt resist.

its been raining since you left me, now im
drowning in the flood. you see, ive
always been a fighter but without you,
i give up.

I guess this is closure.
And now the lust has lost its pleasure.
You take to heart the cruelty of the game that you created.

I have a book with every name of every boy I've
ever loved. It's less than one page because he's the only one.

This is when you start to shake. This is when you start to stutter.
This is when you say I love you. This is when you swear it was only for each other.

There's more to life than loving yourself.
You gotta learn to love somebody else.

because you're the kind of guy
who'd laugh at me when i fall
help me up && then whisper
its okay baby, i still love you.

& you asked me if he was worth it, if this was worth it. I said, the thing is, the happiness that I feel when I`m with him is unlike any happiness I have ever experienced. But the sadness that consumes me during the long periods when the happiness is gone is unlike any sadness I've ever had, too. It is bottomless & makes me feel hopeless & sad. & I can`t decide which one is more affecting. Can I live without the happiness, can I live with that sadness?

i tried and tried to let you know. i love you, but i'm letting go.
it may not last but i don't know

you got me completely. in my own game you beat me.

And I'd give up forever to see the
day where the two of us both could
just walk away.

A million words won’t bring you back;
I know because I tried.
Neither will a million tears;
I know because I cried.

& now I`ve found the boy that treats me the way I should be treated
not on however his mood is that day.
I`ve found the boy that appreciates all the little things.
I’ve found the boy that`s made me come to realize
that you were just a lesson to be learned.

I asked you what it`s like to love, break, & die all in the same breath.
you said, "it`s like walking with the silence in December while a million hearts explode within your chest, but you don`t care enough to feel it."

it`s almost like i`m afraid to admit to being happy.
i don`t know why that is.
maybe it`s because i'm learning i can be happy without him.
or maybe it`s cause i don`t want to be.

See that girl? She used to laugh non-stop, all the time. Her smile was contagious & she had a sparkle in her eye that could light a city. But you ask, why`d that go away? Well honey, cause you went away.

you were the one that made me laugh, you were the one who made me smile, you were the one that made everything I did so much better but you`re also the one that just broke my heart.

Don`t be surprised if I stumble over my words when I talk to you, it`s only cause it`s hard to talk with a big grin on my face & don`t be surprised if I can`t look you in the face when we talk, it`s only cause sometimes it hurts to look at something so perfect.

oh I just remembered how your hand fits the curve of my waist, & how your smile fits the curve of my mind

I did it out of hurt. I loved you, & you betrayed me, & i never want to hurt that much again. never

When you left me there alone that night, I felt abandoned, stranded, alone & utterly forgotten, just as I always did. But then you did something no one had ever done before. You came back. & it was in that moment that I knew I was head over heels in love with you.



Boys don't kiss and tell
They kiss and exaggerate

She may be confused about a lot of things, but she knows the only time she`s truly happy is when she`s with him.

i want you to remember the feel of my hair & remember the scent of my perfume I always wear. remember my laugh & How sweet our kisses used to be, remember the way that you used to love me.

Never forget your first love,
cause they`ll always be the one who started your heart beating

Sometimes, I just miss that boy. The one who held my hand walking down the street; who`s arms I laid in & never wanted to go away. The one who I talked to for hours & told pointless stories to. The one who knew everything about me & liked me anyway. The one who knew exactly what I was saying even if I didn`t, & helped me when I had no clue what to do. The one who showed me what love was & what it was like to need someone there. The one who could only make me cry & hurt me like no other guy could. Those eyes that said everything, that sense of sarcasm that was always there; the way even he couldn`t stop from falling in love. And we couldn`t leave each other`s side. Something is still there; something that never left me the day that boy broke my heart in two. Something like your first love that wasn`t ready to end. Something that makes your stomach flip at the brush of a hand or arm. Something that makes it so much harder to know that he`s not yours anymore, but hers. Something that makes you want to hide away & cry all those tears, cause suddenly all of those memories come back & it almost hurts worse to know that it`s all out of control. & you just miss everything about that boy that isn`t ever coming back.

There`s always going to be that one awkward moment when you walk by that person & remember all that you once had

Don`t come running back to me when you get treated the exact same way you treated me.

It`s hard to give up on the one you never thought you`d leave

Who knows him as well as I do? Who knows his laugh, his smile, the way he moves & throws his glances? Who knows but I the scent of his clothes, the way he drives, the things he does? The curl of his hair at the back of his neck, the words he uses, his sense of humor. Each of these things I know & cherish as if they were my own. Who else but I could love his taste in shoes, his gestures, his gently curved features.. His smooth skin when he shaves, & his stubble when he doesn`t? Who knows him as well as I do? & who could love him as I do?

It`s been a long time since the first times. The first time we met, to the first time we kissed, our first good-bye, our first tears, to the last "I love you." People say you never realize what you have until you lose it. In a way; they`re right. But I never took you for granted cause I knew any day I could wake up & you would be gone. I just hoped so much it wouldn`t be for a very long time. But now I miss all those things

I never really noticed. Like how much I miss your hands holding mine & most of all, I miss your smile. No matter what was going wrong, all you had to do was give me that smile of yours & somehow I knew everything was going to be all right. I haven`t seen that smile in forever. I just keep hoping I`ll see it again so I can have that feeling that everything`s going to be all right again. I`m not all right. I`m anything but okay right now.

& then he came back again. He did know me. & I knew him. I always had -from the first instant. & the rest of it, it was over. It was just the past. It was as if it never happened. There was just my memory of it.

you have forgotten about me..& "us" you don`t care that you hurt me so much. thanks for breaking your promises, thanks for breaking my heart.

I'd rather be outside
In the freezing cold with you
Then in the warm arms of somebody else

i feel like such an idiot
searching for you in the hall
and when i finally see you
your with her.

I can`t even explain it, when we`re in a crowd of hundreds, our eyes always manage to find each others, that`s got to mean something.

and the funny thing is that
i can't seem to remember what
i ever saw in you

I wouldn't take a bullet for you,
but I'd push you out of the way.
I'd rather stay with you;
I love you enough to stay.

I MISS YOU.
it's as simple as that.
so stop breaking my heart..
and just come back.

ive got the sun in my hair
and he has this crazy stare
and i just know
this will be the best summer yet

i sigh with tears in my eyes
flop myself down on my bed
and whisper over and over
"what did i do wrong?"

why cant you even pass by?
spend some of your time, even just to say hi
you're not the type of guy who would make a girl cry
so, tell me whats changed....

what can i do, to make you mine?
falling so hard ;; so fast this time.
what did i say, what did you do?
how did i fall in love with you?



will you do something for me please?
just picture your life for me?
thirty years from now, forty years from now?
what's it look like?
if it's with her, go. go!
i lost you once, i think i can do it again.
if i thought that's what you really wanted.
but don't you take the easy way out.

tell you what.
the truth is, sometimes i miss you so much
i can hardly stand it.

why should i let this one go? why?
when everything in my body
says that this one is the one?

i don't wanna know that
something i didn't say
could have saved us.
i don't want there to be
things left undone.
because maybe if i
had kissed you a little bit harder,
or held you a little tighter,
i wouldn't have driven you away.

it brings back an old feeling
running into you like this
i'm really not afraid of hurting
but i can't stand the awkwardness
do i laugh, do i cry
do i dare look in your eyes
oh no, here it goes
my hands start to shake
my heart's gonna show
like the day we met
til the night you said we're through
everytime i look at you

the other night i saw him, first time in years
my heart skipped a beat when he came walking near
and much to my surprise he said hello
and that he loved listening to me singing on the radio
i said that's a funny, funny thing
cause you're in every song i sing
yes i've been loving you from a distance
since you were only seventeen
but i never had the nerve to mention
the feelings flowing inside me
i knew a girl like me never would've stood a chance
so i poured my heart into the music that i made
and i kept loving you from a distance

almost ten o'clock, i should've known
her car would still be parked in his drive
almost pulled in, knocked on his door
and gave him a piece of my mind
oh but i just kept on driving back to my place
wondering why i went so far out of my way when
i don't care, he don't matter
i don't love him anymore, he can have her
i don't know why it slips my mind
i tell myself all the time
guess i forgot for a second there
that i don't care

you've broken my heart for the last time
you promised the truth and you told lies
you really made me believe
that love was supposed to be free

in another town, in another place
looking in the eyes of a pretty face
i ain't no fool, i know what he's thinking
i can hold him in my arms
but i could never let him stay
cause your love
your sweet love still gets in the way

then i drove him home
thinking, ain't love grand
oh i'd never felt that way before
and i never have again
now i'm in love with a memory
sweet history's got a hold of me
so don't go falling for me now
we could never be
cause i'm in love with a memory

when i look at you
you look through me like i'm not even there
i'm trying not to give up
to be strong, but i'm afraid to say i'm scared
i can't find the place your heart is hiding
i'm no quitter but i'm tired of fighting

I've tried so hard to forget about you and me.
But it's not that easy.
I don't see how you got over it so fast.
But I'm sorry, I'm not like you.
I love our past.

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Two lost hearts
and one caught in the middle
They came together and the other fell apart
It appeared the answer to the problem
I have no reason to smile.
The Lover and the Liar - Chiodos

We crossed paths for a reason.
The planets align in the particular season.
It's clear to me, that we'll eventually be, inseperable.
I love your existance, I can't get enough.


A lullaby won't change my mind,
and I won't ever go back to that.
I will stay true to this belief
that we've changed for the best through this

I am thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes
are mirror images
and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned

And my heart's beating out of my chest
And this town is still making me sick
And every penny from my last paycheck
I've blown it on you
Bouncing off the Walls - Sugarcult

I was kidnapped real young by the sweet taste of love
Built a fondness for things that just weren't good enough

You left me with a
head full of dizzy thoughts
And a stomach filled with knots

your standing there
with a single link of our eyes
the memories rush back
they pass me like a towns on a highway
the first glance, first touch
first moment i knew i loved you
but now all i see is a song i used to love
and that has never felt better

i looked out the car window today
and im realizing that i miss you again
its funny how out of nowhere
you came to mind, the truth is...
i wish you were still here

so, let it be just me and you tonight
tangled up in each others arms
with fireworks exploding in our hearts

Another night goes by without sleeping
cause i know i won't wake up next to you.

no more broken promises,
the tears that fell, they won't be missed.
and i told myself the worse is over now.

if you spell his name in your food
if you're always in a dancing mood
if you see his face in the clouds above
darling, you are in love

& i hope that when you looked
in her eyes, you saw my reflection.

in a show of hands
who has said these exact words?
in a show of hearts on the floor
who has ever meant them more?

maybe i could have loved you better.
maybe you should have loved me more.
maybe our hearts were next in line.
maybe everything breaks sometimes.

You just have to live your life
not caring and shake
off the drama just to prove
that you're better
than they think you are

i know your life’s not useless;
and if there’s some way, I’d prove it.

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

Look at the sorrow in her eyes.
As she finally says her goodbyes.
All that love yet all those lies

you told me you loved me ..
but boy you can tell a perfect lie

Through all the bullshit-face it.
Through all the lies-accept it.
Through all the struggles-surpass it.
Through all the games-own it.
Through all the blames-confront it.
Through all the mistakes-learn it.
Through all the bitches-slap it.
Through all the faults-admit it.
Through all the fakers-realize it.

you’re soft on the lips,
but rough on my heart.
you pull me together and tear me apart.

We could end up broken hearted
If we don't remember why this all started
And if they try to tell you love fades with time
Tell them there's no such things as time
It's our time

she needs a getaway,
a reason to drive far from here.
she's memorized the roads, and
all the people she'd rather leave behind.

you know, when it works,
love is pretty amazing. it`s
not overrated. there's a
reason for all those songs.

And maybe it didn't matter so much
whether he took the step or I did.
All I knew was that he was there.

I wish I could've quit you, I wish I never missed you
& told you that I loved you, every time I fucked you.

and i've spent too much time
holding up walls, sitting in the corner,
clenching my jaw, watching you
watch the girl i wish i could be.

et over yourself and say goodbye.
forget my name, forget my face.
i hope you get on a plane
and forget this place.

You're not the person that you used to be.
The one I want who wanted me.
& that's a shame but there's
Only so many tears that you can cry
Before it takes the light right from your eyes.
And I can't go on that way...
So I'm letting go of everything we were.
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

Let your waves crash down
on me & take me away.

The only reason people
Hold on to memories so tight
Is because they're the only things
That don't change when
Everything & everyone else does.

But that summer had a way
Of making her smile & feel happier
It was sort of amazing how for those 3 months
She always believed in herself
And in all that she could ever be.

Right now, my biggest falter
Would be growing apart from you.
You've changed & I have too.
But we had the time of our lives.
& I'm wishing I could go back.
I think I woulda done something different.

& I'm feeling love
Like I've never known it before.

We just have to accept the fact
That some people will stay in our hearts
Even after we've left theirs.

Every girl has that one boy
That she'll never get over.
 That one guy that makes you laugh all the time.
 That one that gives you butterflies just
When someone mentions his name.
That one who remembers all
The stupid things you ever said 
And reminds you about it months from now.
The one always in your heart.
 That one who you compare to everyone.
That one you never get sick of
Talking to or hearing about.
That one you cry over and over about.
That one that no one can understand why him.
The one people think you can do better than.
That one you ask why her and not me.
 That one when you first saw him
You knew you loved him.
That one that in some way
Ends up not being yours.

I don't know why we all hang onto
Something we know we're better off letting go.
It's like we're scared to lose
What we don't really even have.
Some of us say we'd rather have
That something than nothing,
But the truth is to have it halfway
Is about ten times harder
Than not having it at all.

Glad I didn't die
Before I met you.

For him to hurt you like this, he must have truly lost his way. He must have forgotten what matters. It can happen. Even when you don`t mean to, it`s easy to lose track of what`s most important.

You know how there`s that one person that you always go back to? You`ll date other people but you kind of want to run into them when you`re out

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning. You used to be the one that put a smile on my face.. there are no words that could describe how I miss you, & I miss you everyday

How can you settle for her when you haven`t even given me a chance?

The backseat was piled so high with stuff that she couldn`t see out the rearview mirror, but that was okay with her. She wasn`t planning on looking back, anyway.

She had been there herself the previous summer, & for a long time before that. Maybe it hadn`t been exactly the same pain, but  she`d been stuck in a depression so dark it had threatened to take her down with it.

He said, "I didn`t mean to break your heart." but before he could finish, I replied with, "I didn`t mean to fall in love either, but we all make mistakes."

Ever have that one person in your life that you just can`t give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time, yet you always seem to give them another chance, & no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it`s a lie because there`s always just one more waiting for them. The one person you know you`re better off without but yet you can`t find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn`t know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn`t deserve you, but yet you choose to over look it because you love him.

Here`s to the moments where we didn`t think about right & wrong; where we just lived, crossed our fingers, & hoped for the best.
[Here's to last summer.]

There`s a lot of things I need in my life right now, but you aren`t one of them.

I sometimes sit & wonder.. if I were to die right now, would you know how much I love you & would I know how much you love me? Would we be fighting or be happy?

I just want you to hug me one more time, because the only thing in the world that scares me.. is that I`ll never feel that safe ever again.

Forget it? Shit, I can`t forget it.
This isn`t something you can just wipe away like that.

She didn`t like endings or beginnings. She preferred to keep things somewhere in the middle, where she could build her momentum ; no jolting starts or screeching halts.

Because he has been a major part of your life, of course you`ll miss him ; it`s perfectly normal. It`s like getting a tooth pulled out. After the dentist pulls it out you`re relieved. But how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you doesn`t mean you don`t notice it. It leaves a gap, & sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It`s going to take awhile, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling out the tooth was the right decision, but it`s going to hurt.

You say you don`t want to hurt me?
Well, it`s too late. I`m already broken & scarred & it takes everything in me just to breath. To wake up & force a smile onto my face & hide the tears. I`d give anything to go back, to make everything okay, if only for a moment. I`m sorry I can`t be the person you thought I was. I`m sorry it was all a lie to you, because it meant everything to me.

If you ever saw how much you hurt her, you`d never look her in the eyes again.

I don`t know. I don`t want it to be like this.
I hate this. I hate the way you`ve
made me feel & I`m sick of pretending
that it doesn`t hurt me because it does.

She`d be lying if she said she didn`t miss the jerk
that shattered her world,
but she`ll never admit it.

He taught me how to love.
He was the first boy I kissed that actually meant
something. He` not perfect, not even close.
But that doesn`t mean he`s not everything I`ve ever wanted.

If you can look me in the eyes & tell me that I don`t matter; if you can kiss my lips & feel nothing inside of you; if you can hold my body close & say you love her more.. than you can walk out of my life forever.. & please.. don`t look back.

I`d do anything for him. Stand in front of a gun, take a bullet to the chest.. & just let him run.

We`ll always have those weird moments, when we`re together & you`ll look at me with that smile & we`ll both remember how things used to be, then reality will hit us & we know that it will never be like that.. never again.

No matter what happens, the first person you love, you will always love. No matter who else comes along, he will always be on your mind & in your heart & when you think you`re over him, you see his face & the feelings come rushing back to you.

You know what`s funny? Those things that you did when we were together that would always piss me off are the things that I miss the most. You know when you`d never stop talking when I was trying to watch a movie, or how you would always be a smart ass, or how about all the times when you insisted that you loved me more. When you`d playfully make fun of me for saying something wrong, or when you`d pick me up  & carry me & throw me in the snow, & when you`d call me later than you were supposed to. Those are the things I want back. It`s weird, I used to think that when I was apart from you, I`d be glad I wouldn`t have to put up with them, but now those are the things I miss the most.

You didn`t love the boy too much, you just loved him too well. & at our age, some people just don`t know what to do with that.

She misses that feeling she had when he held her in his arms.

Dear girl,
I think it`s time for you to let go of him. He has hurt you & me too much. Just let the memories fade. It`s time to leave him behind. I know it`ll be hard, but it`s for the best, trust me. Remember, always follow your heart & everything will be fine.
Love always, Your Heart

I want to say I deserve better & mean it. I want to say I give up & believe it. I want to say I`m moving on & do it.

Not a million fights could make me hate you.

It`s when I`m standing six feet away from you & not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you & how much I miss you that I want to just scream to the whole room that I`m still in love with you.

It`s when I`m sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number & hanging up that I would trade a thousand tomorrow`s for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight.

Never let the hand you hold, hold you back.

I sometimes wonder if I leave you right now, would you grab me, or would you just let me walk..

You know you really love someone when you don`t hate them for breaking your heart.





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I fought so hard for you. You just never realized it.

When you left her, you left her with nothing. She had to pretend and lie to set up a new life. She worked hard every second to pretend like she was over it. When the truth is, she never stopped loving you.

I want to believe that they were all lies, because then it's easier to tell you no.

If I had my way, we'd be dating right now. We'd be together forever and I would always love you.
But, we have it your way.

I spent months covering the hole that you left me with.
Now, within 24 hours you managed to uncover it, and make it so much bigger.

Everytime something good happens I want to tell you, then I remember, we don't talk anymore.

so, It's been a few months since you left.
Today you texted me, and I could almost feel my heart breaking again.

I hope when your with her, and everytime you hold her hand, touch her back,
You think of me, and I hope you think of how much you hurt me, and how you will probably hurt this new girl too.

I do love you, I really do. But when I see him, I love him more. The ex that broke my heart, still has it. He still has every piece, and I can't give it away anymore. Because it's his

I just wish you would listen to me. I feel like I'm screaming, and you won't even look up.

we run back to eachother when it's convenient. we know that in the end we're ment for eachother but not for right now. so we play these games -- act like we're okay when one of us has someone else. when in reality it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. but it's that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.

That girl has you, my whole life, my whole existence, and you have no idea how jealous I am.


Philphobia - Fear of falling in love or being in love

Someone asked me if I missed you.. I did not answer. I just closed my eyes to hide the pain, and walked away. then when no one could hear me, I broke down into tears.

when i told you i loved you, i ment it..
apparently you didn't.

i just wish i could read your mind, and know exactly what your thinking;
and exactly which way your planning to screw with me next.

I dont think you could have done anything more to hurt me.

It's like you knew that when you started dating her.
It's like you knew that it would tear me apart.

When I see you with your girlfriend I want to punch her in the face,
and kiss you on the cheek.

wasnt it me you didnt want
wasnt it me who was hanging on
now im done but before im gone i want you to know
this is how it feels
when you wait for a call that never comes.
when you lie awake at night cause you miss someone
this is how it feels
when the trust you had is broken
and your left in bed with your heart wide open
-The veronicas, This is how it feels

Kinda makes you want to sit on his roof with a dartgun doesn't it?

I don't miss you. Well not who you've become. I miss the boy I fell in love with.
The one who taught me to love life &+ never care about what other people think.
I miss the boy who had lost so much, but was always ready for what tomorrow brought.
I miss the old you, but he seems to have gone &+ I guess that's why I did too

find a person who loves you for exactly who you are,
good mood, bad mood, ugly pretty,
the right person is still going to think
the sun shines out of your ass.
That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.

-JUNO.

WHAT I WANTED?
i wanted you to fight for me.
i wanted you to say that there was
no one else you could ever be with.
&+ that you'd rather be alone, then be without me.
THAT'S WHAT I WANTED.

Today i made you a mix tape to say exactly how i feel inside,
and make you feel it to...
these are the songs that make me smile
and cry myself to sleep at night when i'm lying without you
i love you more than i ever loved anyone before.

when you told me you loved me.
i believed you, but not anymore.

you told me you were different..
but you could never prove it.

It took me all summer to get over you,
but today I saw you, and fell all over again.

my friends say i'm crazy for lovin you,
but i say i'd be crazy if i didn't.

I'll never forget the night you told me you loved me.
Because that's when I started living.

I thought I could handle it,
could handle us being friends,
But I was wrong, Because I still love you

fuck you.
I really hate you right now.
I loved you. I gave you the best of me.
But you cheated.
Now you come waltzing right in,
Like nothing ever happened,

I had standards before you, I sware I did.
No musicians,
Blonde hair, blue eyes.
At least within two years age difference.
Well, guess what. I broke every single one of those standards for you.
I'm still not sure why, but I know that it was ahuge mistake.

My friends told me not to trust you.
And when we first started talking again I didn't.
But as we talked more and more each night,
i began to feel myself falling for you.
&+ I hate myself for it,
because I should hate you


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